Monday, August 30, 2010

The human ticking time bomb........

Well folks, this blog post may be it for a little while (or not, who knows? - perhaps I will be in the "mood" to blog daily from now until Friday - I will roll with the punches.)

This post finds me 38 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I am exhausted and mostly delerious from lack of sleep - I haven't slept more than about 45 minutes at a time in the past three weeks. I feel so "off" but I am not in labor. The nurse (whom I am sure knows me on a first name basis and says the words "oh no, not her again" each time my number appears on their office phone) assures me that this is all normal and to be expected at this point in the pregnancy. I never realized how incompatible with my personality this last little bit of the pregnancy would be. Last Friday I went in for my check up - at which point the doctor (not my doctor - seeing as how he was on vacation last week) says to me "oh yes, you're making progress, it could be later today or later" - are you kidding me, buddy? Couldn't you evaluate me and announce - "yes, you are this far along, you will be holding a cute, cuddly baby boy in your arms in exactly 3 days, 2 hours and 29 minutes......."

AHHHHHHHH!!!! So, in case you didn't catch the drift, I am exhausted and my nerves are shot. Here's the deal. Because I am pretty sure the doctor is positive I am going to LOSE it without a definitive end date - IF Miles does not come naturally before Saturday, September 4th (that is THIS Saturday) we will be dragging our little bums over to the hospital for an induction at 6:00 am. The light is at the end of the tunnel. That is only 4 days from now. I will be 39 weeks and 2 days - and they will agree to induce you at 39 weeks even if not medically deemed necessary (and we are NOT medically necessary - we are "mom is going bat-crap crazy" necessary - and there IS a difference.) Some people may disagree with our decision process, but we are confident with it. This is the day after Nate's exam and the first day of his "vacation" month - and we know that month will come to a definite end - so that is another reason we are going forward with this plan.

As for my plans for these next four days - it is going to involve whatever in the heck I want it to. Right now that is reading, cuddling with Hans, and speding a pretty fair amount of time in the chair. It may include walks (if I feel like it) it should include some laundry (hmmmm....we'll see about that one). Perhaps I should try to make one more trip to the grocery store (I SHOULD but this doesn't mean it is going to happen.) I don't want to go very far seeing as how my belly pretty much touches the steering wheel when I drive.

And so, perhaps there will be another post, perhaps not. After Miles is born, I am more than sure that within a given matter of time, we will be sharing his story and pictures on here - so until then, I bid you all a short goodbye!

Monday, August 23, 2010

A Whirlwind Weekend Wilkey Style!

Friday morning I awoke to a cute husband who made me stay in the bedroom while he "arranged" my gift(s). Since our first "anniversary" (please note I am referring to the dating one - so over 7 years and still going strong) he has always planned fun and amazing things. I got out of bed to a "treasure hunt" to find my gifts. There were four steps around the house. He bought me a beautiful pair of stud earrings and an amazing vintage ring I had seen at a store a while back. Although the last 4 wedding anniversaries included surprise trips - this was equal to, if not better! So, suffice it to say, my morning began on a strong note. The only horrible part of the day was that after that amazing series of gifts, Nate's darn present didn't even make it (or Saturday, either, darn it! - I swear, if it doesn't come today, I am may absolutely LOSE it....who am I kidding, I pretty much run that risk even IF the present does come today :)

Grandma and grandpa arrived at around 10:00. We went to Sophia's House of Pankcakes for yummy, delicious brunch. Then sweet hunniebug had an eye appointment (he has been having some issues - so I was glad we were finally getting him checked out.) Meanwhile, Bapa, Meems and myself went to Gander Mountain and I found a great waterproof, windbreaker on super-clearance! It was pretty fun. Then we decided to go to Sears to check out the clearance Lands End section - holy cow, we hit the Lands End Jackpot!!!! Grandma got a pair of shoes and a pair of pants, I got two new tops, and we found Nate a jacket, a pair of grey pants, and a sweater. The original ticket prices were somewhere around the $250 range. Each of these items (there were 7 items) were on clearance for only $9.99 - and we thought we were getting a HUGE deal, only to get to the counter to learn that there was an ADDITIONAL 25% off. We walked out of the store for $56 for ALL of the items - talk about a lucky day. Grandma and I went to get pedicures while Grandpa and Nate went to a tool store. We got home and got all ready and went to Pipers for our special anniversary dinner. We all dressed up a little bit, it was super-fun! We were celebrating our anniversary and Miles coming - so we kind of took out all the stoppers. We got caprese salad as an appetizer, I got lobster, Nate was adventurous and got Crawfish Etouffee (it was AMAZING!), Bapa got King Crab legs, and Meem got grilled shrimp. We finished off dinner with 2 pieces of pie we all tried. It was very fun!

Saturday we began the day with grandpa and grandma coming over and playing the Wii. It was hilarious and cute - two 78 year-olds enjoying Wii Bowling! We went down to Franklin and went to Starbucks, a cute toy store, Kohls, and then were going to go to Aunt Judy's for lunch, but they were closed, so we went to Athens Kitchen and even Bapa ate a gyro! This is a pretty big deal considering sometimes Bapa isn't too much of a risk taker with foods - but guess what!? He ate it and liked it! First Wii bowling and then a gyro - all in one day - I would call that a successful trip. When we got back home around 3:00 grandpa and grandma hit the road. Nate and I finished out the day with some chores.

I suppose that is all! I was very bad and we didn't take a single picture all weekend - too bad none of this is photographically chronicled for life - oopsy!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Year 5!

And here we are - year 5! This post feels a bit silly, considering that it is chronicled in pretty great detail on this blog.

I suppose it looks something like this:
School for Nate, housecleaning and managing for Jen. 2 weeks spent in Alaska for the Christmas holiday. January saw me getting the "dream" job and keeping a very fun (but BIG and challenging!) secret. March revealed a healthy baby boy. May Nate took boards. A few weeks were spent in intensive "get-ready-for-baby" mode. Nate began rotations at the same time I spent 5 days in the hospital, 27 weeks pregnant with a kidney mystery. There were baby showers and fun. And then, all too suddenly, here we are - married for 5 years with a baby on the way.

Truth be told, it has been quite a ride (that is just beginning!). Some parts were awesome, some parts a little bit tough, but the whole ride more than worth it. I love my husband more today than I did yesterday. We may have been 19, but I wouldn't trade a minute of it for anything.

I love my life, it is as close to a "fairy-tale" as real life can get!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Year 4!

Year four saw us adjusting to our time and life in Greenwood. Nate began med school and I settled in to my job. I polished up my laundry skills trying to get the cadaver smell out of scrubs from Nate's anatomy class. We traveled with grandma and grandpa to Arizona and had some fun in the sun. We rode in a hot air balloon and visited some family. In March they downsized my company and I lost my job. I spent much of the rest of the year unemployed and wandering. We had some "personal" issues as well with the loss of our first pregnancy. On the bright side, our marriage strenghtened and we found a church.

Nate and I got rid of the Saturn, it was a sad time. The Saturn gave us one last gift of some money to take an anniversary vacation of fun. Nate planned a great and amazing trip that included Gettysburg, PA, Hershey, PA, Philadelphia, PA - and wrapped up in THE BIG APPLE - New York City. It was hands down one of the most fun experiences, EVER. By this point, I was blogging - so if you want to know more, refer to the archives.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Year 3!

Is it just me or is it SUPER sad that this is the best picture we have of both of us together on our college graduation day (oh well, at least Nate looks like the goofball and not me!)

If you look really hard, there is an iguana in this picture - the iguana explains the slightly "strained and terrified" smile on my face - I was pretty convinced it was going to attack

The third year saw us enter our last year of college (well, undergrad, at least!) I got a job at the Hardware in North Manchester and LOVED it! Even at the beginning of the school year, we began to dream of the upcoming graduation from Manchester and the next steps, and began wondering if we would accomplish our goal of getting in to med school. We arranged "Plan B" in our mind, but it was a rather anxious time. For Spring Break and Graduation, as well as helping Grandma and Grandpa celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary, we went on a cruise to the lovely Caribbean. Upon our return from the cruise, we found a very important piece of mail - a Manila envelope from IU Med School! We bought a house, we began spending weekends at the new house to get it ready for our move, we studied for finals, and packed ourselves up to leave North Manchester.

We moved all our life in to our new house on a Saturday in May, and officially graduated from Manchester on Sunday. I got a "real" big girl job. I had a very bad bout of kidney stones. Nate got to play "stay-at-home" husband for the summer. Finally, August rolled around and Med School began. We celebrated our anniversary ever-so-slightly delayed at the beginning of September in Cincinnati.

And that, dear ones, is year three in a nutshell!

Year 2!

Because of the time of year Nate and I got married - our "early" years were always marked by the beginning of a new year of continuing education. During the second year, we began our junior year of college. Nate made me wait until Thanksgiving to decorate the house for Christmas. Then in January, 2007 - we went on a January term trip to London for 2 and a half weeks. Although the memories and experiences from this trip are amazing - truth be told, I would very much like to burn every single picture with me in them. My love affair with the brownies led to 30 pounds and suffice it to say, short haircuts look better on Hollywood size -3 models. Oh well, it was what it was. Beginning in February (it is no coincidence that I was motivated to action AFTER seeing the London pictures) I began a 10 month journey with Weight Watchers and letting no scissors near my hair. Another not so fun thing that happened during 2007 was my lovely case of giardia (you know, since I drink out of stangnant puddles all of the time). By the time summer rolled around - things were looking up. Nate had an internship that he did at the school and began studying like a wild-man for the MCATs, while I had a horrible summer working at the CVS. By the time August rolled around yet again, we were ready to continue on the journey leading to now.......

My grandparents gave us a week in their condo in Maine so that I could eat all of the lobster I pleased. It was a GREAT week. By day four, Nate couldn't handle any more lobster - and by day 7, even I had my fill! It was a very fun trip. We went to Vermont, New Hampshire, Maine, and then finished out the week with a trip up to Niagara Falls (previously unplanned!) Another year down! Another year more in love with the cute little man I call my husband!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Year 1!

This Friday, Nate and I will celebrate our 5th wedding anniversary! It is so hard to believe that 5 years has gone so quickly - and yet, we have sure packed a lot of fun and experiences in to those years!

I thought it would be fun to have pictures from each year, one for each day - leading up to 5 years on Friday! Join us if you will!

The first year began with a big, beautiful, fairy tale wedding. I quickly tested the limits of Nate's love for me by deciding I hated hair and needed to go with a pixie cut. Then I began my love affair with brownies and baked goods. (Just wait until days 2 and 3 for some pictures I would rather not share!) We honeymooned in San Antonio, Texas and began our sophomore year of college. We lasted exactly 2 weeks without cable and internet. I insisted on decorating our house for Christmas the day after Halloween. We went on a cruise to the Panama Canal with Grandma and Grandpa over Spring Break. We moved out of our rental and into the house we would call home the rest of our time in Manchester. We approached our first wedding anniversary by going with some our friends to Missouri and then to Mackinac Island with Grandpa and Grandma before bringing in our junior year.

Continue the journey tomorrow!!!!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Baby on the brain

Baby Nate

Baby Jen

Jen's crazy toes

Nate and I have been thinking a little bit about what Miles might look like when he is born - and in thinking about this, we have referenced back to our own baby photos......

We thought it might be fun to get some "feedback" on what our family and friends think Miles will be like:

How much do you think he will weigh?
How long do you think he will be?
Do you think he will have hair?
If you think he will have hair - any guesses on the color?
Will he have Mommy's toes (2nd toe in longer - Scottish toes) or will he have daddy's toes (normal!)?

Any early guesses or hopes on due dates? - We have had the following due dates indicated at different points - 9/9, 9/11, and 9/13.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock.........

I am torn between two very different and distinct feelings from one another right now. On one hand, I am so excited for Miles that I can barely stand it. I want to meet him, I want to hold him and love him, and I want to have my body back. And yet, I am not 100% ready. There are still a few more things I want to get done around the house before he makes his big arrival - and to be truthful, I am not moving on those items very quickly.

The last few weeks have been priceless to me. Following the shower on the 24th of July, I spent the week getting his room organized, ready and all of his "things" prepared. In this way, if he came tonight, we are 100% ready for his arrival. There is simply nothing else we need right now. I am sure a few things will come up after he is born, but I have read all the books, checked all the sources - and we have everything! We installed his car-seat and had it inspected by the fire department. I have been doing all of the "socializing" with my friends that I can possibly do! And I wouldn't trade it for the world! Life is going to change in more ways that I can imagine. I couldn't be more excited if my life depended on it, but I know that this is my last time with "just me" - so I suppose the "selfish" part of me just wanted to make sure I had gotten all of this out of my system.

I have begun checking out books from the library with titles like "Bouncing Back After Baby" and "Get Your Body Back." Haha, I suppose we can see where my mind is focused. This pregnancy has given me the resolve to get in better shape than I even was before. Who knew that a pregnancy was so tolling on a mom's body? (I don't mean to sound like an idiot - but truth be told, I didn't have much of an idea.)

For about 2 weeks - and especially in the last week, Miles has wedged himself so far up in my right ribs that I simply was about ready to lose it. He is so worth it, but good grief - I don't think I have ever been that uncomfortable for that long of a stretch of time. At 4:30 this morning I awoke to an odd sensation - I felt fine - and this was alarming. As a matter of fact, I didn't feel pregnant, I just felt kind of crampy......After a few moments I was worried. I suppose my mind is just in overdrive about what to expect at this point. I got up for a while, and realized that there was absolutely nothing wrong. I was more comfortable than I had been in weeks. Miles was moving around - and I could still feel him - but a good solid 6 inches lower than normal. From my understanding he is probably in the process of "dropping" - I am sure the doctor will either confirm or refute this on Tuesday. We shall surely see. I understand all women and each pregnancy are different, but after a call to my dear Aunt Candy - she said that sometimes this signals the beginning of labor - perhaps in two weeks? Who knows, maybe it will be longer? I want him to be as far along as possible so that he is healthy, but goodness knows Mama is ready! I still think we will be seeing him somewhere in the region of the second week of September, but we shall see - I am trying to tell myself it will be longer rather than shorter at the suggestions of a few wise friends of mine.

One of my only worries or fears right now is just the factor of "unknown" - I have never been in labor before - will I know it when it is here? I more than assume that this is stupid - of course I will know. Not to mention, it sure doesn't hurt to have over 1/2 of a doctor in the house!

The anticipation grows as does the excitement.....until then, I will just keep myself busy and occupied - passing away the days........Miles will be here before we know it!